Should I just give up on love

Hi 20 M I’ve had lots of struggles with love at such a young age I’ve only have three exes and none of them went well I’ve also talked with a few girls and they thought I was weird the kind of women I want is like a dominant woman who cares for me and hold me on rough days I know that’s weird and that’s why I don’t think I’ll ever find it so I’ve just kind of given up and I have depression and have unfortunately gotten into the habit of just going to work coming straight home and staying in my room so I haven’t exactly gotten myself out there anyways I guess I’m just asking if I should give up and if not what should I do